Goodnight Now

It's 8:42 PM and I can barely keep my eyes open.  I wanted to go to sleep at 7:30, but I knew I wouldn't sleep through the night if I did.  Tim is working up at Sundance again tonight so I'm sure he'll need someone to talk to at 4 in the morning when he is driving home, so it's probably in my best interest to go to sleep now.


Goodnight.

14 Weeks

This week has been spent mostly trying to figure out my birth plan.  I thought I was going to just give birth at a hospital - but I was having second thoughts.  Unfortunately I haven't been able to discuss this thoroughly with Mr. Bassett since he has been gone all week.  But I'm pretty set on a birthing center.  I'm going to schedule an appointment to take a tour of the birthing center I like best sometime before my next appointment with my OB/GYN.  Hoping to come to a conclusion before then so I can talk to my doctor about a back-up plan (if needed).  Also this birthing center does not take insurance, so I thought maybe I would still see my OB/GYN so she could still be familiar with my pregnancy in case I did need to use her as a back-up. I have already paid for her care along with my insurance, so I may as well utilize.  Besides, I really do like her, and if my only choice was to give birth at a hospital I would be extremely grateful to have her as my doctor.  She is amazing!

I also really want to thank everyone who was so kind in sharing their birth stories.  It really helped me come to some conclusions, and help me decide what I want and what is out of the question.  Nothing is set in stone yet, but it has helped me out a lot.  So THANK YOU!

(I had to take the pic by myself this week)

How far along are you: 14 Weeks 6 Days today (pic taken earlier)

How big is the baby: About the size of a peach!

Baby's Gender: We will find out on February 7th! 

Baby's Name: Not sure yet, have plenty of ideas for girls.  None for boys.

Weight Gained: Our scale needs a new battery so I'm not positive.  But around 9 lbs!!! (WOW!)

Clothes:  My clothes fit fine.  Some of my tighter skinny jeans aren't very comfortable.  I just try to wear really long, long sleeve shirts.  Love thermals.  The second I get home from work I put on leggings and long socks.  Stylish.

How are you feeling: I've felt really good this week. No symptoms really besides feeling like I have to pee all of the time.  Key word: feeling.

What do you miss: This week I only miss Tim.  He has been engineering and doing stage production/management for clubs for the Sundance Film Festival.  I have seen him for about 3 hours in the last 6 days.  Slept alone every night.  But if we are talking about the pregnancy (which I think we are), then I don't really miss anything... as of this past week anyway.

Symptoms: Feeling like I have to pee all of the time.  Mild heartburn - but only when I eat spicy foods (given, right?)

Cravings: Water!  For the first time in my entire life I actually like just plain old water.  It's a miracle.  I also have been craving bread, and room temperature, ready to eat foods.  Nothing warm or cold sounds good at all.  I'm barely hungry, but I can tell the baby disagrees - so I eat anyway.

How are you sleeping: I have been waking up in the night almost every night, but it's probably due to the fact that I am sleeping alone.  Last night I went to bed at 8:30 PM, woke up at 10:30 PM - then back to sleep until 5 AM. 

Movement: The occasional flutter!

Birth Nerves

My feelings about giving birth have been all over the place.  Some days I think I just want it to be as 'normal' as possible and to give birth in a hospital - nothing special.  Other days I think I should be doing something special and making sure it is a pleasant and pleasurable experience for both me and the baby.  I've considered looking into a midwife, but I also love my OB/GYN.  I'm so confused!  I'm just afraid that if I have the baby at a hospital it isn't going to be special at all.  I'm also not convinced that it is 100% safe or sanitary to have it at home (so that is out). 

My concerns:

- I don't want them to take the baby away once it is born.  I want it to stay with me the entire time.  I want to breast feed right away.  I don't want there to be any delay in maternal care.

- I may want to give birth in a different position than the hospital seems to think is best.  Why would you give birth lying on your back with people holding your legs back in an unnatural position to your chest.  Talk about making an already uncomfortable situation worse.

- I don't want Pitocen.  I don't want to feel rushed.  I don't want to the docs to try to make me think it is neccessary because they have other things to do.  I do not want to be induced.  I do not want to schedule the birth whatsoever. 

- I don't want to share a room after the birth.

- I don't want an epidural, or at least I don't want to be offered one.  I'll ask for it if I feel strongly enough.

- If we have a boy, I don't want to have him circumcised - is that crazy?  Tim seems to think so.  Let's just keep hoping for a girl!

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Anyone reading this want to share any stories, or give me any suggestions?

13 Weeks

Technically in this pic I was 13 weeks and 5 days - I am 14 weeks tomorrow.  But who's keeping track?

It's really weird to be gaining weight like this.  I know it's normal (obviously, I'm growing another person!) - but I have never weighed more than probably 105 lbs. so this is definitely a different experience for me.  Even though I am barely showing, and have gained hardly any weight at all, I feel huge.  Simple tasks are becoming more difficult.  Shaving my legs is uncomfortable.  Bending over, and that kind of thing just isn't as easy.  I can't even imagine what it is going to be like when there is a basketball sticking straight out of my stomach.  But, I think I can handle it for the next 6 months.

Other than that, compared to other people's pregnancies I hear about, I feel like I'm making out pretty good!

Some other updates - (I'll just post some stuff I see other people do on their blogs)

How far along are you: 13 Weeks 6 Days today

How big is the baby: About the size of a lemon.

Baby's Gender: We will find out on February 7th! 

Baby's Name: Not sure yet, have plenty of ideas for girls.  None for boys.

Weight Gained: Our scale needs a new battery so I'm not positive.  At the doc on 12/28/11 I had gained too much already though. (in my opinion, not theirs).

Clothes:  My normal clothes still fit, but I feel more comfortable in leggings and stretchier pants.

How are you feeling: Good for the most part.  At night I get mild heart burn and indigestion.

What do you miss: Luckily I don't eat meat and dairy because that pretty much sums up all of the food restrictions for pregnant women.  Although the one thing I do miss, that is vegan, is sprouts!  Of all things I can't eat, sprouts?!  I also miss my nightly scalding hot baths.  I do not miss cleaning the litter box though - (thanks Tim!)

Symptoms: mild heart burn, indigestion, very mild nausea at night sometimes, tired, hungry, bad allergies pretty much all of the time.  I cry at every sad thing on TV, and seeing cute babies makes me excited!

Cravings: Pancakes, apples, fruit punch and Ginger's nachos!

How are you sleeping: As long as I go to bed after 11 PM I can sleep through the night.  Any earlier and I wake up and watch Netflix all night.

Movement: In the last week I have definitely felt some odd 'fluttering' movements in my stomach.  I've never felt anything like it, so I can only assume that it's the baby.  I'm sure I'll know for sure later. 

Jetta

Remember when I bought a Hyundai on Saturday... well we had some trouble financing because of the negitive equity rolled into the loan from my trade, so I had to get a better fit for my situation.  At first I was really frustrated that they were telling me I had to pay $4,000 out of pocket to keep my Hyundai or pick a different car.  But in the end I am SO GLAD I got a different car.  I'm in love with my new Jetta, and I was just in like with my Hyundai.  They are the same year, but the Jetta is the sports edition, so it has all of the fancy stuff, leather (faux - lucky for me or I would have passed on the deal), wheels and chrome on the outside.  Plus it only has $35,000 miles and my Hyundai had pretty high miles.  Granted I spent about $4,000 more, but it worked out much better in the end.  I'm thrilled!  Here are a couple of iPhone pics I snapped before I drove it off the lot :)

EXCITED!

12 Weeks

Announcement

Tim and I got up Saturday morning because we decided it would be a good day to buy a new car.  I've actually been trying to sell my car online since mid November, with no luck.  I've had several people call about the car and want to drive it, but it was hard for me to let it go.  I really loved that car.  Anyway, so today I traded it in for a 2008 Hyundai Sonata.   It's a normal car.  It has a back seat.  It has a trunk... and it's not charcoal like every car I have ever owned, it's dark, dark blue, almost black.  I love the car.  But I must admit I got teary eyed driving off the lot knowing I would never drive my little Smart again.  My first brand new car.  The car I pre-ordered and customized a year before it arrived.  I loved that thing.  Anyway I had to give it up, either now or later, but I figured the sooner the better with winter approaching.  If you know me well, you know I panic driving in winter weather.  So this is a positive change for me.  But, the real reason why I sold my car is because... 

I'm pregnant!  

Never thought I would say that.  But, I never thought I'd make it to high school, I never thought I'm make it through high school, I never thought I would get married, and I never thought I would grow up.  It all seems so distant, until it's right there in front of you.  So now I'm pregnant.  It's no surprise, it was on purpose.  It feels good to be 25 and choosing to have a child.  A lot of people I know got married young, had kids young, even accidental pregnancies in junior high and high school.  So I'm proud to be a mature adults, making the decision to have children.  Not that there is anything wrong with another way, I'm just happy it was planned.  

I've known of the pregnancy since Nov. 9th, it's been hard keeping it in all of this time.  Tim and I decided to wait until we told some of our family members and also to wait until our first doctor's appt. which is generally at 10 weeks, but due to the holidays it was a little over 11 weeks for us.  I am now just short of 13 weeks.  We went to the doc and did a bunch of tests.  We got to hear the baby's heartbeat.  It was pretty amazing.  I knew I was pregnant, but hearing the heartbeat was a real confirmation that there is another life inside of me.  I am caring for someone else.  There is something bigger than just me.  My doctor is amazing, she is my family doctor who also happens to be an OB/GYN, so she will be delivering the baby also.  She is very supportive of my vegan diet, and thinks that the baby will thrive as well or better than any other.  

I haven't had a lot of 'morning sickness' but some nausea at night here and there.  I've definitely been moody and emotional.  I cry about everything.  I cry at everything on TV.  I'm just so emotional and overjoyed at everything.  I feel like I feel everyone's joys and suffering.  It's an incredible feeling.  Besides that I have just been really tired, sore legs, and a little heartburn.  I tend to go to bed at 9 PM these days, wake up at 1:30 AM, watch a few shows on  Netflix in bed and then fall back asleep.  It's getting old, but I can't stay awake much later, and I can't sleep during the night.  I've been craving fruit like you wouldn't believe.  I've always been more of a veggie eater, because the acidity of fruit has always upset my stomach.  But I've been eating at least an apple and an orange daily.  The other day I sat down and ate almost an entire pineapple and an orange with plenty of room for more fruit.  It's delicious!  It no longer upsets my stomach, it's great.  

Anyway I'll probably post a weekly picture of my belly/baby growing process. I think Tim and I are going to take one every Sunday, starting very soon.  So far I have gained a few lbs, and have a little pooch, but nothing too noticeable.  I can tell that is going to change very quickly.  Everyday I feel more and more pregnant.  We go back to the doctor on February 7th to find out the gender.  I'm really excited to see the baby.  I'm hoping for a girl but I'm pretty sure with my family's genes it will be a boy.  Tim's family is packed full of girls (and twins!) though so we'll just have to wait and see what happens.  I don't care either way though.  We have a few names we both agree on.  I have several amazing names that Tim hates that I refuse to remove from my list no matter how many times he tells me to.  I can't part with them.  We'll see what happens in the end.  They may grow on him.

Anyway, thought I would share.  We are really excited!

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Downer About Xmas

Xmas is just a few days away.  I have most of my Xmas shopping done, but still more to go.  Thanks to Amazon and my free 2 day shipping (which is usually only 1) I haven't had to brave the crowds much.  Every year I say the same thing, "Why do we even do Christmas?"  Why do we set up a pine tree with electric strings of lights, why do we buy gifts, why do we go into debt, why do we give family and friends things they don't need but just might use (who knows?).  I'm not religious whatsoever, nor do I believe in God or Jesus or whatever, so Xmas to me is just the made up tree and lights holiday.  Which oddly enough, that is exactly what it seems like it is to religious people too.  I would love to turn it into a day where I get together with my family, eat, do charity work of some kind - the end.  Gifts and going into debt has nothing to do with religion, in fact from what I know of religion it is far from it.  But anyway, once again this year, I don't want to be a downer and I want to give as much as I am receiving so I have spent plenty of money already on things people don't need.  Don't get me wrong, I love giving, I love new things - who doesn't.  It just seems like there are more important things out there. When I'm asked what I want, I always say "Nothing, but I know you won't accept that answer, so buy me clothes, anyone can use clothes."

Maybe when we have kids, we can start a new tradition.  One that doesn't put you in debt and make you feel insufficient.

Again, don't get me wrong, I love Xmas just as much as the next person - but it is just out of control.  I'd be happy just being happy, having a meal and watching a movie with my family.

Obsessed

I am competely obsessed with these darling pics of animals with the silly sayings on them.  I am weird like the people who wrote these, and can totally imagine my animals sayings weird things like this sometimes.  So I'm weird... whatever!  I'm not the kind of person to send a mass email with all of these pics in it, although I will gladly receive them.  If you don't laugh, you need to check yo self.

All cats are like this.  They sit in anything.  Bags, boxes, drawers, whatever.

One of my favorites, how cute is that.  I share my drink with this cutie!

YAY!

 Pigs are so cute! 

This happens every day at our house.

So true.

This has yet to happen, but I know it's coming.

SO CUTE!

Gettin' serious.  But seriously.

Jay would be so proud of himself.

SO CUTE!

Get your hands off my dog.

I say this to Jay literally almost every day.

Cats can be so annoying.

I can't see, move please.

Nicer than you think.

Remodel

Tim and I have a lot going on right now.  He is very busy with work, his band and other projects and I am remodeling our kitchen and bathroom.  Also working on our extra bedroom a little bit.  We just got some new appliances too!  This week or next I plan on having some new tile grouted, our bathroom vanity and matching accessories painted, grout in bathroom, entryway and kitchen painted a lighter color.  Walls painted in the kitchen, bathroom and extra bedroom.  I have a lot going on at the house right now, but I love nothing more than a good remodel :) 

I'll have to post some before and after pictures once I'm finished!

Take care!

He likes to talk...

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Sincerity

A Few Friends From Work

Craft Fair!

London and I had a booth at the craft fair at my work.  It was fun!

Hi there.

always my motto

Love Them, Don't Eat Them.

LOVE

When Tim and I decided to come visit these little guys with Jack and Charlie, the first thing Tim said was "Jack, how many animals do you think Kiki is going to hug today?" Ha ha!  I can't help it, I love them!  The little cow would not stop licking me!

My New Friend

He was pretty big... like the biggest dog I have ever seen.  He loved me right away.  He couldn't wait for his hugs, kisses, belly rub and a pic.  Animals love me, they love Tim even more.

Dex has an ear infection.  The adoption place took care of him today.  Tim told me they said they picked him up from a shelter in SLC, he was next on the euthanasia list.  It broke my heart, I almost cried.

Tim and I decided right then that we had to rescue as many animals as we could.  We would love to have our own animal adoption program someday.

Bye bye y'all.

I'm spent.

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